Goodbye Fluffy

I have just found Fluffy dead in the cage in the garden, goodbye little guy, you were much loved in the short time you were with us

Hammer House Homeware: Oh I do like to be....

My other blog, Leatherface has left Texas and is on tour with his chainsaw, were will he go today?
Hammer House Homeware: Oh I do like to be....:

My new babies

Scruffy

Fluffy

Nixie has been begging for about a year for a pet and we finaly caved in, well I did, Jay just went along with it with a look that said "if they dont get looked after its all your fault". So we now have Fluffy and Scruffy, they are so small and cute and seem to be settling in nicely. Delilah has been hand feeding them salad leaves this morning and they seemed quite happy, which makes them braver than me! Shes been so good with them, stroking them so gently. I remember Nixie being a little bit older than her and taking her to the farm were there was bunny stroking and her fake stroking them with her hand about an inch away from the actual rabbits.   

Treasury

My little crocheted knight helmet is in this fantastical treasury

christmas mobiles

Christmas 2006, Ozzy's first year at school and our first experience of the Christmas mobile contest, the school gives each class a festive icon which they have to use to make mobiles which are then judged. That first year we had "snowmen", we made them of felt. attached them to a plastic trifle container added a glitter ball ornament and flashing lights.......and we didn't win. That was the last time we entered the competition! This year is Nixie's first year at school and again we have the "Snowman" option , I was tempted to retrieve the origional masterpiece but after 4 years in the decoration box and its battery gone its not the same. So we started a new one, she designed it herself just a simple 3 circles decorated with felt and bits she found, then I decided to needle felt a carrot nose, looking good but she doesn't want help. Aha! what is Ozzy supposed to be making? "Stockings" he tels me, "I'm going to tie an old sock to a coat hanger". Well yes that would be fun, I comment, "or....we can needle felt some stocking shapes, build a 3 dimensional fireplace from card, use coloured tissue paper to make a fire and hang the stockings up...?" "I think I should put letters on the stockings to spell XMAS" he says "the ones that win always say XMAS"
Oh yes, another masterpiece of Christmas crafting will be submitted, and if we don't win? Well we wont be playing anymore.

Thinking of Christmas

I am finaly admiting it, its nearly Christmas. I have decided Im going to make an early start on it so perhaps when it arrives I will be totaly organised. I have made a start by doing half the washing up, well no point rushing!

once begun is half done

Is that Mary Poppins? I think so. Well yes I know that fact to be true but its the getting begun thats the hard bit, here I am full of plans and what will happen and how great things will be but each day getting started is not proving easy for me. I can blame it on the depression, I can blame it on feeling overwhelmed, on having three kids to look after, on the house being untidy, on if I just had this or that it would be easier but in truth it has to be something else thats blocking me, something inside me saying that untill I get started I havent failed, I havent messed up, everything is still possible cos I havent allowed myself the chance to fall flat on my face. I try to kid myself that Im doing something usefull, looking at fabrics on ebay, reading the Etsy posts and blogs, starting this blog when I havent even got my product ready to blog about!
I have the second of my business start up seminars on Saturday morning, looking at writting a business plan, now Im pritty sure I could have done this myself the number of hours I have spent on the net seeing what I need to put in it, printing off examples and blank forms but getting pen to paper, realy thinking about the questions of cost, expenses, first year expected turn over and my brain shuts down and decides more reading is what is required or theres something else to do or that its to late and Ive done enough for today. This procastination is getting me nowere fast. I know what I want from my business, I want to support my family, enable us to get our own home instead of paying someone elses morgage while living with a broken freezer and a shower that also waters the dining room table beneath every time we use it, I want it to give me a sense of purpose, to show myself and everyone else what Im capable of. Why then cant I make that start that I so desperately need and want?